Well this entry could well be named... I have a confession to make...
At the time of my last entry things got outrageously busy with moving house, buying baby gear, going to doctors' appointments, and having visitors etc (don't try this at home!)... not to mention the fact that the computers weren't hooked up for awhile and the computer room was full of boxes! These things and the fact that I was starting to get a fair bit of third trimester fatigue and was trying to follow doctors' orders to take it easy and rest (easier said than done!) meant that I stopped keeping the journal in real time :-(
So here I am, seven months down the track with a beautiful four month old daughter :-)
And I will now finish the journal. It will be in hindsight, and some of the detail will be lost. But I'm hoping that the issues that now stand out to me might be useful for others on this diabetes and pregnancy path...
The things that stand out to me for the rest of my pregnancy are:
From a non-health point of view:
- being amazed and delighted by the little kicks and movements of my little one (especially at night)
- just loving my partner talking to the baby
- realising that some of the rhythmic kicks were actually hiccups (which she still gets regularly!!)
- thinking "Now I know why they say to do all your baby shopping in the second trimester because you'll find it easier than getting around in the third trimester"
From a health point of view:
- feeling increasingly exhausted due to not being able to sleep properly at night (my sinuses were just soooo blocked which is common in pregnancy but arggh)
- being happy and relieved that all my ultrasounds were showing that everything (especially growth and amount of amniotic fluid) were spot on normal
- happy with my HbA1Cs (although I got thoroughly sick of writing my bsls down for the whole pregnancy and kind of gave up a bit at the end)
- My insulin requirements tripling by the end of the pregnancy (it was very hard to readjust to pre-pregnancy calculations for boluses once my little girl was born - I think people need more help from the medicos on this)
- trying to talk to my obstetrician about birth plans but her preferring not to because events might mean the plans would go out the window anyway (I really didn't like this. I was level-headed and happy to have eg a caesarean if need be, but I would have liked more of a discussion on the options for various scenarios than I got) I found that as time wore on and I grew more tired, especially with so much else going on at the time, I kind of lost some of my will to push for things and be assertive
- seeing a lactation consultant due to concerns that my diabetic mastopathy (boob condition of diabetes) might interfere with breastfeeding (it didn't) and finding out just so much more that I needed to know about breastfeeding. Seeing this woman was one of the best things I've ever done. Very reassuring.
- My lovely endocrinologist being just so positive about my progress. Telling me I was doing a fabulous job. "I think you should be doing this more often!" :-)
- The really big weight gains at the end (fluid) and my endo not being concerned about them, telling me it was quite common, telling me not to worry about my puffy feet
- despite his positivity, my endo reassuring me that if my bub was born early (even at 30 weeks) it wouldn't be a problem because these days the premmies do really well. (I was booked into the most highly regarded hospital for neonatal care in my state)
- my obstetrician being much more wary than my endo. Even at around 30 weeks, when I started getting puffier, me saying "so do you think I'm developing pre-eclampsia?" her saying "well nothing I'm seeing is telling me that you're not" grrr, I'd go from her appointment feeling worried to my endo who'd reassure me, and eventually to the day ward where once again they were somewhat concerned. It was quite a rollercoaster.