February 17, 2007
permalink Over one year later

Wow - Once again I can't believe it's taken me so long to get back to this diary to finish it off. Life is busy with a beautiful fourteen month old boy and an energetic and imaginative three year old girl to look after. It's exhausting at times, but life is also indescribably gorgeous.

I feel incredibly lucky to have my two precious little ones in my life and very grateful to my medical team, my friends and most importantly my wonderful life partner for their support during my two pregnancies and beyond.

At my endocrinology appointment a couple of weeks ago I found out that my kidneys had recovered from the second pregnancy. The protein was 0.26, pretty much the same as it had been just prior to conceiving my son and even better than it had been prior to conceiving my daughter! So my kidneys have seemingly bounced back. Great news.

Sometimes I feel as though I have three children. The third is my diabetes. I'm always needing to check... just what is this third child up to now? It's a wily child, an unruly child, and often it gets neglected in the busy immediacy of having to look after my two real children.

My most recent HbA1C was 8.9 which is not great at all. Partly it's because I tend to eat late these days and fall asleep before being able to check that my blood sugar is settled for the night. Often my sugar levels are quite high on waking. My baby boy sleeps near me. When I wake to feed him at night the last thing I feel like doing is turning on the light to test my blood sugar. But that's what I need to do to get my blood sugars down again. That and to record my bsls. That is what has always helped. I guess tackling ye old tendency to under-insulinise would also help. But it does take some disciplne.

I've had a couple of dreams lately about having an actual third child, but have no logical intention of doing so. I'm thirty-nine for a start. Perhaps this third child actually is my diabetes? I owe it to my children to get my diabetes under control again so that I can be around for them and healthy for them for as long as possible.

Posted by M.A. at February 17, 2007 03:46 PM

Comments (3)

Wow, your words are inspirational. I have type 1 and also 2 wonderful little girls, thank goodness neither pregnancy had any real complications. I like your analogy for diabetes being a third child, I thought that was my hubbys job! :), but I think you might be right. I have been neglecting my third child this past year or so, as I've taken on study, so that i can get a better job when my youngest starts school. I've always delt with diabetes in a positive way, I feel that it has made me gain better control of my life...your words will help me to make sure that I gain back that control. Thanks for your blog!!!

Tanya Chapman

Hey Tanya, I am sooo thrilled that you have gotten a bit of inspiration from this!! It's made my day!!

I totally understand how hard it can be to look after your diabetes when you are looking after little ones. Especially when you take on saomething else too, like study. I am working five hours a week at the moment. My daughter goes to kindy but I have my one year old with me full time, so I'm squeezing the work in when I can. I've also been working lately on finishing off this blog. Trying to do extra stuff seems to always take a bit of a toll on the diabetes, but it's also good for the soul :-)

I'm now trying to simplify my life a bit so I can get back the control. Most recent hba1c was 8.8 sheesh but hoping the next will be much lower. Good on you for studying. And enjoy your little girls.

All the best and thanks again for your thoughtful post.

Mary Anne

I just have to say that I feel so lucky to have stumbled upon your blog. Your entries are the most honest ones about diabetic pregnancy I have read yet. i am a 37 yr old type 1 for 24 years. I had a son at 20 who passed away after open heart surgery at 18mnths and had really given up hope of another child until I met the man in my life who gave me a reason to look forward. We are currently trying to TTC and are going through a rough time of it but after reading all your blogs I have a new found hope that YES! I can do this. Thank you:)

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